I think this is a start of something great.
I’ve veered away from my homework because I just can’t get over what happened tonight. For the first time in a long time, I can safely say I was genuinely proud of myself. I sat back and looked around and couldn’t believe what I was seeing, how much I did, and how much this may change things for my school. A senior who is a friend of mine told me something that really stuck out to me and I will never forget it. She said, “You actually changed something for FDU.” There has been so many people who have tried and couldn’t do it and some who have but not for the creative writing department. I am just surprised I actually did it. I totally I forgot I didn’t mention what happen ( It’s been a a long day) I got an author to come on campus. and I did it all by myself. I didn’t ask for anyone’s help besides the setting up, but I worked with an agent and even though it was totally intimidating, and I had no idea what I was doing, I still did it. The Creative Writing Club here at FDU is only a year old and already we’ve done so much. I wouldn’t have been able to do it without the support from my family and Paul ( yes he’s currently snoring next to me….) I think this is what I want to do forever. I want to be able to make some kind of change in the way education is seen and so be able to see the look at students faces and see the inspiration that I saw tonight and felt on my own face. I’ve been nervous about this all week and I am just so happy it worked out and went so smooth. During the day before the event everything was going wrong, and once I got in my mode and just let it go, everything was good and according to plan. But this was the first time, I sat in the back and just took it in, and lived in the moment. I havent been able to that lately and I almost cried. It went well… too well. The other shoe hasn’t been dropping lately, I am getting nervous.
I really don’t know how to feel now . I can’t sleep because I am too excited. I just want to jump up and down and scream and run around. It’s over I am still excited, I’ve never felt this way before.
I guess this is what proud feels like.