A Letter to Cope the Mind.


Dear “He who should not be named,”

I wanted to tell you how grateful I am that you came into my life. I am also grateful for how quick you left.You made my life have some meaning when I thought it did not. You gave me somewhere to go when life became too much for a small girl like me. You opened your arms for me to fall into, even when sometimes I thought I didn’t need to. I gave into your sly smile and warm touch even when my greatest friends told me the opposite. I saw some glimmer behind your dull eyes and your powerful demeanor. You gave me something to look foreword to, disappoint over,hope for. But after all the pain and agony you have put me through, I longer long for you. I don’t strive for your approval. You have given me  the confidence to find someone who is going to treat me the way I deserve instead of being walked all over. Don’t tell me I have to act a certain way, or look a certain way. I am my own individual and not anyone, especially you, has the power the change that. You are not worth the pain I feel. As much as you made me happy, you have mad me just as mad. I was never good enough for you and you always looked for something to pick at.Now that you are gone, I can focus on me, the most important person that shouldn’t be left on the back burner. I will no longer feel miserable because your name doesn’t come up on my phone or mind. In time, I will fill in the blanks were you once filled. I will find something more productive things to do than wondering what you are doing. Wondering if tears fell down your face, its not worth it. You were not worth it. You never were and you never will be.

My friend was telling me how his girlfriend broke up with him and how miserable he was feeling. I told him he should write a letter. He doesn’t have to send it. But seeing it on paper helps,have unfiltered thoughts helps a mind cope. As a result of my advise, I did one too. I had a old boyfriend and he wasn’t the nicest. He was alright but dating is for fairies and I am not one. 

Sarah. 

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2 thoughts on “A Letter to Cope the Mind.

  1. Hi Sarah,

    How do you feel now you’ve written the letter? Like a weights been lifted off? I can imagine it was very cathartic. What a good idea. I’m so glad you let go and walked away realising you deserve better. Someone who puts you down and belittled you is nit worth your time. You should feel sorry for people who are clearly so insecure they feel the need to try to “shrink” you in order to grow taller. I would love to hear your story properly. Eg how you met, how you felt, what happened. It would be a perfect Mr Wrong story to highlight the experience of Mr Parasite/Vampire. Lol. It’s also inspirational in terms if how you dealt with it. Perhaps you could contribute this story to my book along with the letter writing advice and letter. I think it will be great!

    You can email me at dingdongitsmrwrong@yahoo.co.uk :) x

    • sarahviveca says:

      I have a new boyfriend now, I really want to send you something but I have like NO time because I’m back in school. It might take me a while but I promise I will give you something.

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