A Letter to Cope the Mind.

Dear “He who should not be named,”

I wanted to tell you how grateful I am that you came into my life. I am also grateful for how quick you left.You made my life have some meaning when I thought it did not. You gave me somewhere to go when life became too much for a small girl like me. You opened your arms for me to fall into, even when sometimes I thought I didn’t need to. I gave into your sly smile and warm touch even when my greatest friends told me the opposite. I saw some glimmer behind your dull eyes and your powerful demeanor. You gave me something to look foreword to, disappoint over,hope for. But after all the pain and agony you have put me through, I longer long for you. I don’t strive for your approval. You have given me  the confidence to find someone who is going to treat me the way I deserve instead of being walked all over. Don’t tell me I have to act a certain way, or look a certain way. I am my own individual and not anyone, especially you, has the power the change that. You are not worth the pain I feel. As much as you made me happy, you have mad me just as mad. I was never good enough for you and you always looked for something to pick at.Now that you are gone, I can focus on me, the most important person that shouldn’t be left on the back burner. I will no longer feel miserable because your name doesn’t come up on my phone or mind. In time, I will fill in the blanks were you once filled. I will find something more productive things to do than wondering what you are doing. Wondering if tears fell down your face, its not worth it. You were not worth it. You never were and you never will be.

My friend was telling me how his girlfriend broke up with him and how miserable he was feeling. I told him he should write a letter. He doesn’t have to send it. But seeing it on paper helps,have unfiltered thoughts helps a mind cope. As a result of my advise, I did one too. I had a old boyfriend and he wasn’t the nicest. He was alright but dating is for fairies and I am not one. 



Love on Top.

I have loved Beyonce since she was in Destiny’s Child. When I was younger I would sing through my hair brush all Beyonce’s songs. She really is inspiring to all woman. She is living proof that any woman,any race can be heard. I love Beyonce because she is a positive influence on young girls showing them that you can be independent and no man should ever get you down. This is Beyonce’s new song, I love it. You Go Beyonce!


My Mistake.

I am not a slut

I was just in love

With the wrong man

A man who watched me

Formed me

Into the woman I am today

Who told me I was ugly

And I believed it

Who only loved me

When we were alone

Because he hated seeing me smile

He aged me

In ways you will never understand

He took advantage of the fact

That in my eyes he could do no wrong

That I would love him forever

But you see I’m finally walking away

Even though his kisses are the most pure

And his touch warms my soul

I can’t be bleeding from my heart anymore

Because every time he tells me I’m not good enough

I bleed a little harder

I grow a little weaker

I die a little faster

Thirteen Reasons Why.

I wrote this poem in High School. I was focusing more on the rhythm of the poem more than anything else. I just wish it didn’t rhyme.. Enjoy <3 

p.s No.. I am not a mass murderer.


There are 13 reasons why

I walk on this earth today

Not to prove to you

How much I love you

Or to make sure you’re okay.

There’s 13 reasons why

The moist grass seeps

Into my hot feet

On those humid summer days

It’s not because of you

Forcing me to do it.

Theres 13 reasons why

You are not part of my life

It’s not because I wanted

To let you go so quick

It’s that you chose

To walk away.

There’s 13 reasons why

You are under the earth with the grass

It’s not because I’m insane

I just did what was right

So you would stop hurting

The people who loved you

And the people who would love you

If they had the chance.

There’s 13 reasons why

You are not on this earth

It’s not because of me

It’s because you didn’t prove to me

That you actually cared

If I was okay.